life's challenges do not aim to paralyse you, they aim to push u on. i believe that now.
i am in denial... i cant believe it... i hav always thought of myself as a positive and upgoing person. but now im hit wif another shocker today. haiz.
i wrote quite a few things down today. personal stuff... dunno if i really want to type it here... but... arh i dunno... im lost and confused... beginning to hate things all around me. don't realli think i felt happy about things since so long ago. real happiness doesnt come easy, i know that now. i... i... just want to live a peaceful life now. simple pleasures, not in search of anything more. gosh i realli need help... im wallowing in self-despair...
not looking forward to anything, except having a good sleep. i havent slept in 2 days... been counting the seconds all the way til morning... gosh... i feel so disgusted of myself...
im imagining things... dreaming up things that cannot be... that's the fantasy i live in. i want to be in a dream. foreva, where everything goes according to what i want and im such a good guy, such a popular guy. i am a good guy i believe. sometimes i wonder if im too good... heez...
got back 4/5 of my common tests liaoz... ABCD... hope the last one's not E... XXOO#@%!#%&#(* ...

dreaming as usual... in a fantasy
-Chee