DAMMIT. how was i able to keep messing up my life. again and again. why.
im damn pissed la. and upset. and totally messed up inside me.
i just want to cry. or shout. or smash things on the ground.
how much control im exercising just to keep calm and cool infront of others.
how much control i need just to keep my hands of the caps key and the shift.

and how irritating to just take the nel today and see all the stupid advertisments and quotes of the day. all those quotes that ive seen these days:
the first duty of love is to listen
love benefits all -- both the giver and the receiver
three things of life must not be lost -- peace hope and honesty
there can be no rainbow without a cloud and a storm

what are those supposed to occupy you when u stare blankly at the woodleigh station and buangkok station that is not open?stupid waste of money. and time. and guess what. i think im seeing things.. i actually saw a person in the buangkok station. damn.

why did i have to keep doing things that people won't appreciate, and step on others' tails, and do the wrong things, and move the wrong way...

and keep making wrong assumptions.

and giving the wrong impression.

STUPID.
I'M DAMN PISSED LA.

AND WHY MUST CHRISTMAS BE IN RED AND GREEN!!!! @$%!@#$%@^Y@
IT'S SUPER BRIGHT!!!
WANT SPOIL MY EYES IS IT!!!

WHY THE FUSS OVER CHRISTMAS!!!