Hheyz hhi _____. do you know who I am?
erm... no. Am i supposed to?

imagine.
grr.

I'm Chee Hang la...
erm... who the hell is Chee Hang?

imagine.
grr.

I'm getting a bit too hopeful... not fun. im so pissed la... feel like a total idiot standing there. ok fine i'll let it pass. my brain is too small to bother to rmb such things...

Today i faulted again. I thought of the future. I thought and talked about it. why why why... i promised myself never to think far again. cus there's no point. i dun see myself in the future. my place is the present. living day by day. why did i break my own promise? :(
actually to be now here in this present tense i'm already very lucky. very very lucky. two years ago today i wouldnt have thought i'd be here typing this, while listening to Ave Maria, which im supposed to learn how to sing. Yes 2 years ago today i wouldnt have thought i'd still be singing, or rather still be able to sing. also i wound't have thought i'd be still around to be able to look forward to this christmas.

but then.
today i thought of where i'd be 3 years down. i was almost so sure i would still be around studying, then it hit me. would i realli be there? was the future something which i had a part in? im making it a point now that i wun think more than 1 year forward? its a good enough allowance. or else i'll be punishing myself time and time again...
so for now. the A's is the furthest im looking at.
No more mistakes.
I don't want to speculate my future when i know damn well that i may not make it there.

i dun think anyone will miss me in the future too... quote: "Am i supposed to know you?"

bish.

ok.

mus still wait for the results.
must practise singing
tmr will be looking at the syf set piece.

-Chee