haha.
i feel like a star today. or maybe its just because thousands of people know that i went for piano exam. anyway... im at a lost for words when people ask me how i did. here's a few reasons why.
Why don't i just say that, "hey i think i can pass that"? Cus im not that confident too... I don't want to be hurt when i finally get my results and what if i don't make it? And i don't want to brag. i know how bad it sounds when someone just keeps saying that things will be fine and u feel so bad cus u know u will nv reach a similar standard.

Simple... just say that i cant make it! But no. i know of people who don't make it. And i hate complaining. (wait let me clarify... i don't hate people who complain...) im not one who will go tell everyone i cant make it and such. it may or may not be true, but it does seem abit like an attention seeker. in my point of view that is. hey. look. i want to be popular too, but using this method makes people think im weak. that's how i view it. not that everyone who does that is weak but myself, i m that harsh on me.

oh wells... that doesnt leave me with much to say does it? ya... don't keep saying that 'im sure u can make it la...' to those who don't realli know my standard, don't keep saying that im good! u may hav heard impresssive pieces at piano ensem concert but that doesnt mean anything. hey, those pieces were actually simple. and i fake to make it impressive. ya...

and there are a lot of other people around who are better than me. what if u keep saying that im good, and then there's someone who is better who hapened to trip in the exam overhears it? its bad u know... wld make one wants to cry...

ya having said that...
was asked some time ago on a topic that comes wif growing up. relationships. some people are just very curious on what my private life consists...
CH, do u have a gf?
do u like anyone?
you and so-and-so ah, why always together ah?
is there something going on between u and her?

and the list goes on! hey look. not that i don't want to say anyhting, but as of now, all those above are no no no no. and its perfectly my business.
we are all human. we are social animals. we are emotional beings. this topic that people ask on is sensative... we all want to be loved and liked by others, and we want to share our love and like for others as well! by just asking all this questions, u r taking things too lightly. a serious matter actually may have put off some people about realising how they feel by some stupid idiots who have wagging tongues. sorrie for that 2 words but im not very pleased.
i've been hurt before. countless times actually. and ive been in a relationship before, something that some people have suspected and never proved. but talk of all these have proved to be something evil. the last time it ended something i cherished a lot. but...
what can i say...

haiz all ive said above is just an understatement. i have a lot more to say but perhaps not. not now anyways. enuff... before u people start talking again.

to those who want to know what's going on wif me now... i'm sorry i cant say more. if u r meant to know, u will know one day. speculations will lead u nowhere. it might even kill a very promising budding friendship that might even develop further... sheesh...

-Chee