hm.
cant believe i finished Sophie's World today. mus admit i didnt understand half of it. Micheal Crichton is much easier. oh wells. haven had a chance to reflect. but here's something...
What if we find out that we are but a figment of another's imagination, we are always being watched, we are under someone else's control? Will we try to break out of it? Will we try to escape and try to control our own self? Wait... Will we even know?
I think its safe to say that we dont know anything. Look. How nice and warm we are, in our own comfort zones. who ever wants to give that up? And go to eternity? Not me. because we never like to venture into the unknown. (hey look, im someone who doesnt like changes. )

I think that I can safely say that i havent even understood any single thing in that book. Once Hilde comes in im lost. Then after that i cannot say that i've read anything. everything just passes by in front of me. And will i ever make sense of that book? Is it even a story to start with? Why do i have so many "Why's" now in my brain? Why cant i make out any of the whys? hmm...

I believe that im not made to understand it at first glance. Not even at second reading. Nor third. No. Its not in me to understand it. And im not going to put in effort to. If im to understand it, i will. in good time. Something about fate or wad? Hm.

suppose i had taken more time? No... No... I shouldnt think like this. Well now that i have finished it, What more can i do than to let it go, and focus on other things in life?

Oh before i forget, Happy National Day!!!

Saw the NDP on TV jus now. Grand. As usual. Ooooh... one day i shall be inside that thing. Not as an audience. Not as an MP (hey im not a politics person haha). What i want is centre stage. Yay. (ok la... dreaming..., as usual) but who is to stop me from that? haha. One fine day. I shall be there. U MARK MY WORDS. ^+^

Oh wells. touched the piano today. My finger's gonna be ok! yay. Then heard my recording from the first time i went to the studio. Ouch. my schumann rushed like what. and so unclear. but surprisingly, thinking back to end of May. Then, i never thought i could play this thing from start to finish. Hey, then, i never even thought of playing this piece at all! Schumann was a romantic ! and im not! haha. Oh wells im hoping to pull this off a few more times. Counting down, 10 more days and i shall never touch this piece again.

OH MY GOSH. Dance Macabre!!! No matter what, im going to play the Liszt transcription for promos. yay. its gonna be great i tell you.
(well that's 11 min of my programme settled. the other 9? hmm...)

ah what was i doing today? i havent even finished one set of work! what do i have left:
Vectors assignment
Numerical Method tutorial
Physics ASsignment
Physics Tutorial
Studying for Physics LEcture test
GP Paper 2
Programme Notes
MEP essay
Harmony

WHATTT!!! SO MANY THINGS!!! AND I SPENT TODAY READING! haha...
well take it easy chee hang. no good fretting. start now!
Yar guess that's what i have to do! So tada. Lemme go do prog notes!
yar right. when did u ever be so good and listen to yourself? U r going to end up watching tv today. tonight. and u r going out tmr!
oh ya. tmr im going to my new house! yay. can see everything there. yay. 2 more months and im moving!!! cant wait. but im moving higher!!! oh no im scared of that haha. umhm.. yar i guess i'll jus watch tv now. haha. no la. for once i'll be more disciplined.

oh gosh. what s that... split personality? scary. but it helps in helping to scold myself to senses. by looking at myself from an outsider's point of view, im thrown out of my comfort zone. and i'll be able to catch myself when i fall, and pull myself back before i step into a pit. not that i encourage it for everyone. u might go bonkers. haha.

alright. shall stop rambling.

10 days to lr.
Happy National Day.

Going crazy...
-Chee