hhi

i must remember today. 23 july.
today is the first time since june i actually was fine. i mean, i was truly happy and had nothing to bother me about. i may still be under stress and the pressure to do well for so many things, but im finally able to control my feelings. keep them under check. finally. after so much thought and talk about not letting my emotions get in the way of doing things, and focus on wad is important, i find that im finally able to put my words into action. maybe not all of it but still...
im finally able to leave everything behind. n im finally able to see everything in a clear light. everything is falling into place, everything is so logical now. im no longer angry nor upset at anything nor anyone. it happens that everything has a logical explanation, and it just takes time to see it. and now i'll no longer feel depressed and stupid for all i have done. im glad i did what i did. (oh i feel im repeating myself here. haha)
i felt as though i revisited my life. over the past half a year, then another year more. i suddenly see why things happen. things happen for a reason, and most of the time the reason is to help u mature. yupz. im finally able to smile a real smile today, and joke wif everyone sincerly and laugh a hearty laugh today. im glad.
and im glad for everyone else.
and everyone else's paths whom im going to cross, i hope to brighten up their days when i see them. and lighten everyone's load (tho my shoulder hurts too. haha) and also give everyone a reason to smile and laugh, and forget all their worries.
i feel like a kid all over again, discovering my happiness. and its just like 2 years back when i got the fated results. and i can say its for the good.
gosh. smile everyone.
and i promise, everyone who meets me, will get nothing less then a sincere bright smile, and a cheery (or lunatic) hello wave.

=o)

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!
-Chee