its so scary... loansharks around... brrr... dun even dare to go out liaoz... how? red paint on door, writings everywhere (mind you, not my home horz...)
4 days to prelims... so nervous... going to cheong my chinese lik hell liaoz... cant say that i started... well... heez... muz realli get started... but still got a lot of sets of maths, eng prelims papers to do... how... help me... haiz... guess this is a call no one will eva respond yar? guess so... if there is actually someone out there who will respond... haiz... wishful thinking...
i'm realli lik lost now... feel lik doing this, but scared of the outcome... feel lik doing that, but dunno how to start... i still hav 1 day to think thru it though... tuesday morning will be the day of realization? hope so... i dun wan to drag on... eventually will oni hurt both parties... believe me, its my fault. unfortunately so... well... haiz...

4 days left... muz cheong!

yesterday was fun... haha... the examiners chat was fun... etcetc... though i dunno how i'll fare... lik who will know lorz... today was great... saw 2 generations of teachers in our schol... generatio... praeterit... haha
but i was almost lik shot in my heart... ouch... i was greatly hurt... tears flowed... non stop... i juz.. juz.. juz... haiz... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...... flashing thru my mind now is words... and words... and events and everything... i dunno why... i juz...haiz... wad to do lorz.. now prelims and then...

is it very ambiguous? i think so... but the main thing is... i'm hurt. deeply.

-cheekane

wow... time passes so fast... one more day lefT!! in about 14 hours... no lesser... i'll be stepping into that cOlD room... facing two cruel cold blooded and hearted pple... brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..... but i'll succeed against them,, that's my philosophy. i paid them to pass me. haha

-cheekane

yay... bio test 37/50... regain standard le... and maths prelim paper... finish 80 marks in 80 minutes and got 70 out of it... hit standard! yay... haha...
heez... a tinge of sadness today... if oni u can see it... if oni u can take it out... but let it be... let it go... i'll remain as i am... =o)
ho... monday le... one student taken his dip... muz go find out everything... then another 3 days to my one... so scared... nervous... brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... haha

=cheekane

another day of prelims papers... getting bored of them already... even maths... i lik maths but... still... haiyoh... and its so boring at home...realli lorz.. haiya.. dun wan to complain liaoz...

-cheekane

finally... all prog notes done, everything settled 5 days b4 time.. all geared up for my dip exam... no wait!!! STOP!!! haven't decide wad to wear yet... haha... comments? haha...
haiz... my progress on some things so fast, some so slow... my prelim papers are killing me... diededing... dun wan to do lehz... but hav to... the teachers should juz leave us alone! AGREE? give us the papers to do at our own pace... if we are motivated enuff we can do it one... if not then realli too bad lorz... lik if they all juz do for the sake of doing, then nv learn anything... got use mehz...? rite?
realli dun wan to say anything else.. not in the mood...
if oni u were here... u'd wash away my tears...
haiz...

countdown: 12 days prelims, 5 days dip...

wad a day... 1 thing i hate about this school system is the way they all do last-minute decisions... since they already say no paper on 28th, then y suddenly got practical trial? n den my dip timing not early, not late... right smack in the middle... all shifts also cant... reali horz... now hav to come back after exam to take 4th shift... no such thing lorz... alone summore... so siao one... haiz... then then then... haiz... stress finally catching up on me...

reali dunno wad to do liaoz lar... haiz.. countdown: 6 days to dip, 13 to prelims... stupid exams...

today... hahaz... so maddening...so fun... going to miss the choir trip for piano competition.. and the criteria so confusing somemore... feel like killing the person who set this... cannot do this la, cannot do that la... muz play within this time la... muz pay so much la... oni the prize good enuff..., for my category:$2500!!! hopefully i get there... got 3 rounds... 1st round muz play this la, 2nd round this la... etc etc... sianz... *yawn*

woops.. the target setting forms all taken by Ms Lim liaoz... so scared ... i set unrealistic goals lehz... its unpossible to get 9A1s for prelims lorz... i write for fun oni... now... woops!!! haha...

countdown... 1 week to dip exams, 2 weeks to prelims... a lot of weeks to Os... a lot more weeks to the competition...
no. of sets of prelims paper: 27+10+10+++ and counting... haha... who give most? haha... u know lorz... who else so mad one... heehee... muz work hard liaoz... last leg... my ice melting le... now muz start boiling them!!! haha... good luck to me. =o)

-cheekane

haha... today wad a comical day... had fun laughing in the hall... so funny... okok... i wun tok abt it liaoz... haha... but still very funny... can laugh for centuries one...haha... pity hteh 4-7, 4-8 oral guys who missed it.. good stres relief... haha...

P spoke to us sec4s again... again again again... if u wan ur A1s for english muz show the teacher u working hard... in other words fake it... i think...haha... does it work? who knows... i'm going to fake for all i care... muz hand up more compos!!! haha...

-cheekane

yay... feeling better today... the stupid bio test finish...

haha... 11 pages, then page 6 missing... muz staple it ourselves, then page 5 and 7 on same sheet... then i do do do page 5 go to 7... thought the page 5 last qn was 1 mark cuz the mark on pg 7 says so... then do 1 more question... then see... WA!!! why this qn so wierd? "name process Z" where got process Z? haha... then see... aiya! is page 6!!! then that qn on pg 5 actually 5 MARKS!! haha... rewrite... haha so fun... madz... wohoo

tmr lunch time recital again... 2nd time a piece from my own arrangement being performed... teachers involved too! hope it turns out well... nv rehearse before one... haha... then Mr Heng back out... muz get Mr Cheong to play clarinet for him! (not vr true la... Mr Heng got oral... but anyway Mr Cheong plays better too! Sorry Mr Heng... haha)

in the midst of all this fun... i hoping for some peace and quiet... spending the time wif someone whom can realli relate to me... someone who i know well... reali hope so... it's hustle and bustle nowadays... prelims la, this la, that la... aiya... then Mr Lee say Sec4s losing steam is it? haha... me is no more steam to lose liaoz... muz start boiling water... haha... wait... melt the ice first... now i'm cold-blooded... heehhee... frozen one...

mixed feelings... not sure why... not sure i like it though.. but... yar... one more thing... i hope that everyone around me... will always be happy. i want to be in a happy atmosphere all the time... seemingly troubleless... =o)(=o juz try k? thank you ... big thank you. i mean BIG THANK YOU!

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haiz... hurt, upset today... feeling down... so many things happended... i hate it... but i think i've got to last it thru ya?
for those intended... u know wad happended lar... i assure this is the last time i'll complain about it... it's so saddening lorz... how come this has to happen... and make me feel so bad...
after i found out that --- u noe --- i went to the canteen... to those pple who know me n were there in e afternoon, u will find me playing on e piano... it realli reflects how i felt then... everything i played, somehow it got to a sad mood... ya... how i wished u were there... but u weren't... cant help it... dun worry, it's not ur fault...
i was trying not to cry... i was trying not to get angry too... but can i? haiz... u know... after i left i was so down... sorry but... yar... i was also hopeful u would be coming soon... but it was not to be...
heez... okay... enuff of that... i feel better already! even though u may not see this but still...

haiz... i'm thinking... will u ever see these? but still... i'm going to publicise this... hopefully it spreads and gets to u one day. yar?

well... it's the last lap to the finish line.. 17 days to prelims... sounds depressing but it does hlelp to motivate me! ^+^ i'm losing steam... i'm trying to boil all the water that's in me to get steam... Q=ml ... haha... how much energy do i need? well...haha... i'm going to need all the help i can get... physically, emotionally, wadeverally... yar... and then my dip exams too... 10 days more... so nervous, excited too... help!!! haha...

heez... feel so much better now. realli! i'm realli venting on this thing... haha... seems that everything i get my hands on i'll vent. =o)

that's all for now... hope to do this everyday... for everything that i dun dare to say to everyone, i'll say it here. juz... heez...

-cheekane

It's a first for me... since seeing pple using it... anyway need someplace to say things... since i dun say a lot do i? haha... well... feel free to kill me here lorz... come and kill lorz... juz lik any other place, any other time... let pple kill me rite? haha

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